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Stop rotting in your bed no and just like so depressed and so alone and so lonely and you might as well just like pick yourself up and like do the things that you need to do instead of like beating yourself up let’s go fishing after eating my sandwich come here go go

Go Everything feels the same hi Dan my name is Stan welcome to the world ofra the first couple of days after getting back from the Philippines I was doing so so bad I probably had the worst post-travel depression but I’m getting back on track again I’m just making sure

To keep myself busy with my passions and even when I’m feeling down even when I’m feeling sad I don’t allow my sadness and my lack of will to do anything every day to stop me from actually doing the things I want to do and like to do

Because I know I’m very capable and I know all my sadness is all in the psyche and I know it’s just like the initial lack of motivation and lack of initial push to do things that’s stopping me to do things and I know that if I actually

Get up from my [ __ ] couch that is telling me to nap all day I would actually be fine and I would actually be productive so that’s me today today is a very busy day today is an editing day I had a couple of meetings in the morning and then after breakfast I literally

Took a nap and now it’s 2:00 p.m. but remember Stan never beats himself up I’m honestly just so excited for the weather to get warmer because honestly I blame the weather for any mental health issues I have it’s literally just the weather I mean I’m always great I’m always amazing

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Know what let’s do this together you and me grab Life by the balls and we are just going to you know Talk deal with our sadness sadness I don’t know her literally just the weather shut up Stan collap if you feel like every day has been feeling this same recently I’ve actually been talking to a lot of people recently people who do a lot of similar things as me of course I

Have my best friends that I always talk to that I can always count on but I’ve noticed that the last few years I’ve been actively trying to avoid hanging out with other influencers because I always felt like it was very inorganic and very fake but with any other

Industry I feel like it’s also kind of important to just like interact with people like that just to understand that you’re not alone and that a lot of people like yourself are also struggling with similar problems and mental States and everything so one of the reasons I

Learned this week talk to people who are going through similar things and I feel like you guys should do that too whether it be work school people in the same class I know it sounds like a given but obviously I’ve only recently been practicing it so I just thought some of

You could also take away from my learning of the week stop rotting in your bed on social media and actually socialize with people talk to people text your friends call your friends meet your friends make new friends talk to people in your industry have a community realize that you have a community

Comment on this video talk to me in the comment section give this video a thumbs up just kidding but like not really kidding oh my God I feel like we’re literally just on FaceTime you guys I feel like you guys are my Bes days and I’m just on FaceTime with you

Guys honestly that’s our Dynamic and when I’m on FaceTime with my friends that’s when I’m actually the most productive that’s when I start doing chores at home that I’ve been pushing back so yeah thank you for FaceTiming me anyway Now that I’ve tidied up my apartment I don’t have to lay on my couch all day thinking about all the things I have to do that I can’t get to because cleaning my apartment is a priority so I can’t get to those things that I have to do because I’m dreading cleaning my

Apartment so I’m going to ride all day and stay at home and not do anything I can stop doing that let’s have fun yes it’s literally 3 days later I ended up not vlogging when I started the video No is how I’m not going to act you know here in the world of act show we don’t beat ourselves up or at least we try to convince ourselves not to beat ourselves up because that is a useless thing and you might as well just like pick

Yourself up and like do the things that you need to do instead of like beating yourself up and wasting time ring a bell I bought this Polo Ralph lauran bun up shirt yesterday today’s theme is yellow and blue this Kenzo bag I got from the full sale I’m going to bring my

Laptop today because I actually want to be productive let’s go to a cafe you know what let’s just do it let’s go I have actually been super productive today this by waking up at noon [ __ ] I know I said I’m going to eat breakfast every single day this year and I’m

Trying my best I’m still eating three times a day but recently I’ve just been waking up kind of late like noon but I still try my best to eat three times a day so it still counts okay first meal is breakfast I don’t give a [ __ ] if I

Have my first meal at 2 p.m. this is still breakfast I have a lot of things to do today so I need something super quick so I I’m just coming to Subway it’s so loud and windy today there’s a construction side I hope you guys can hear me I got myself a roast

Beef with a lot of extra vegetables and some Olives as an extrovert I’ve been relying so much on my friends and family not only for a companion but for happiness in general I’ve noticed and I feel like it’s getting kind of toxic because like when I’m not with my friends or family I just just got so sad and just like so

Depressed and so alone and so lonely and I feel like a lot of people feel this way but like these patterns you only notice when you Journal so I really urge you guys to start journaling as well because that’s like one of my main things that’s helping me mentally so

Yeah I decided to just like take this sunny weekend to myself because I feel like I’ve Associated being alone with like boredom with work with like doing errands and chores but I want to start associating being alone with like doing something fun so today I actually want to do something really fun

Like fishing let’s go [ __ ] fishing you know what let’s go fishing after eating my sandwich we’re going to go fishing I also want to go to a new area that I haven’t really vlogged in like I don’t want to keep going to like H Chia every single day because I live here and

That’s literally what I do so that’s also Cafe hop I also brought my laptop with me so we’re going to do a little cafe work and stuff I’m excited to hang out with you Guys I’m so manly today I’ve actually done this a bunch of times before this like ball of [ __ ] it honestly smells like [ __ ] off we go this is so anticlimactic where the [ __ ] are the fishes and why is it so murky literally no one gives a [ __ ] about my fish food

Someone took my bait [ __ ] that’s [ __ ] up I think they’re learning there’s actually a lot of people today because it’s Saturday I’m going to scout the area for some fishes there’s probably 100 people here and I don’t see anyone with a single fish I think this is a

Scam someone keeps eating my bait oh my God what if they’re just like really deep and they’re just so sneaky I think they’ve just like learned how to like steal bait without being detected this is evolution come here pigeon see this is fun hello where are

You no one gives a [ __ ] see [ __ ] be like there’s so many fish in the sea and then it’s this try to grab this oh my God they’re here hey this this is so cute come here I kind of feel bad catching them I’m just going to feed

Them this is like a fish feeding program you know what I’m going to change this into a fish feeding program come here there’s a bug in my come here ew come here go go uh open up open up they so ugly oh my God now that I

Gained their trust this feels so evil but what if I just like no oh my God no I don’t want to do it I don’t want to do it this is [ __ ] up see it’s so easy this is so easy this is too easy I’m honestly over it here

You can have this here I’m over it here oh my God they’re going to love that I want to pet it come here hi oh my God I’m petting her hi hi oh my God I’m literally making Fish Friends hi that honestly made me feel so nostalgic I have probably come here

Around 10 times with my friends back in University that was literally how it would end up like we would just be like feeding the fishes and stuff and we just be like laughing all day I had so much fun just like enjoying the weather and just like enjoying your own company I

Feel like is just so important so let’s continue doing that I’m going to look for a cafe one with outdoor seating hopefully this area is called ichigaya it’s still in shinjukuku but there’s not a lot of things to do here so there’s not a lot of tourists and stuff there

Are schools and offices mainly but I love coming here it’s just so pretty I love the river and all the trees you see that are dead are sakura so they’re going to bloom soon in like 3 weeks or 2 weeks I came to a coffee shop called

Passage I got got myself an oat milk latte as usual oh my God their coffee here is so good you guys moving to Japan won’t make you happier like it won’t fix your problems but for sure like moving to Japan would add to some happiness but I think what’s

More but I think what’s more important is like adapting to Japan and sometimes you literally have to like teach yourself to be happy you have to learn happiness like what I’m doing today just like trying to learn to be happy just being by myself because we’re human we

Get tired of things so I feel like being happy is a constant thing you have to teach yourself a constant thing you have to be learning every day my friends and I were talking about leaving Japan the other day but I was begging them not to

Move because that would make me so sad and they pretty much said that they do love their friends so much because they’ve been living here for like almost a decade honestly they love all the people they build relationships with here in Japan but that shouldn’t stop them from like pursuing their career or

Like moving countries in general kind of the same way as you shouldn’t move to a city just because you have a boyfriend there or like just because you have a relationship there and this kind of made me think like what is a good reason to

Move or not to move and that’s when I was like it’s honestly all about your values cuz I think what you value the most is where you can find long-term happiness and to some people that’s friends to some people that’s their boyfriend their relationships the people

Close to them so I think it is okay to not want to move because you have friends in your city you know and I think that is sufficient reason to not want to move if what you value the most is your friendships the same way as it

Is okay to move countries for a relationship if that’s what you value the most but on the other hand at the same time it is okay to move countries for your career if that’s what you value the most it is okay to leave your friends and family to pursue what you

Want I think with these things it all boils down to yourself and your values there’s no blueprint or like one single way to do anything yeah just the thought I had I feel like I’m just on FaceTime with you guys but Yeah hello I came home for a little bit it ends up getting so so cold and windy I love living in central Tokyo because everywhere you want to go it’s literally just like a 10 to 30 minute commute or walk so I can literally just come home

To like [ __ ] actually and finish the laundry I’m going to go to a birthday party tonight it’s going to be santi’s birthday actually I’m sure you guys know who he is but I just wanted to come home and like edit a little bit do some work

On my computer I wanted to do some work at the cafe but there was a lot of people and I was sitting outside and it was getting really cold so I wasn’t able to do that the theme for the party tonight is like Kawaii kind of vibe but

Don’t want to go as like a sexy boy I don’t care I’m going as a sexy boy I’m honestly kind of pissed because I brought my laptop with me and it’s a MacBook Pro the biggest one the 16in one so let’s just say after today my back

Pain has worsened by tenfold fold that’s how my neck is right now the grind continues I’m going to see you later when I do something fun good morning stand Dan wa today is such a sunny beautiful day again oh my God I’m so glad like today is one of

Those days where you literally just like wake up so easily it’s currently 9:00 a.m. I’m so excited and ready to tackle this day first things first we up the journal just write down everything we’re grateful for my [ __ ] retainers I hate it I ENT our very first driving school

Session yesterday by the way it was all just lectures and like introduction and everything so it wasn’t like that big of a deal but it honestly was so much fun it was just going to clean my retainers every day but yeah driving school was so much fun it actually felt like I was

Back in school like I was back in University but it was honestly so unserious I was loving at all the PowerPoint transitions the instructors were using I also decided to sit in front so I was just like holding myself just like giggling like this is so stupid also we went to Costco yesterday

I got a bunch of things this is non-dairy chocolate milk I got some of those I also got this vinegar Beauty drink with like tea and pomegranate I honestly wanted to just get like two or three of it but obviously like it’s Costco so they were selling it by both apple juice

I’ve always been an orange juice kind of boy but something in the air possessed me to become an apple juice boy cira yesterday but yes let’s have a quick little breakfast I got this massive tub of Greek yogurt and some raspberries I also got this Catalina crunch keto

Friendly I honestly don’t even fully know what keto means I mean I’m not white I mean sorry have you guys been eating breakfast it honestly changed my energy levels throughout the day oh proof that I’m washing my raspberries I’m adding this to my Greek yogurt but

I’m so excited to just like eat this with tahen later and maybe some Tabasco I know some of you are like oh my God Stan why do you eat every single fruit with Tabasco and tahen and everything cuz I have taste [ __ ] oh ooh that smells good doesn’t look very appetizing though

It looks like cardboard and tastes like cardboard chocolate milk I also have some Filipino food yesterday it was amazing when I went to fpp beines this time around I really was like I need to eat Filipino food more even in Tokyo it is a little bit pricier

In Tokyo of course okay I know this say zero g sugar and not to be counterproductive but I want to enjoy this I don’t necessarily want like a zero gr sugar zero calories zero guilt I just want Bon P to me I love being an adult

And making my own rules oh also question what do you guys think of iron Grand’s new album and also what do you guys think of Si’s new song Saturn I just know Saturn will be my number one song this year and this will be the fourth

Year in a row that siza is my number one artist on Spotify rap I just know it it’s going to be Saturn this year 2021 for me was Drew bore by siza 2022 my number one song was good days by siza 2023 it was nobody gets me by sza and

2024 I just know it’s going to be Saturn by SIA sza best artist in the world my favorite s in the world and just like that I’m in some outfit content creation is so interesting but yeah I’ve just been working all morning now it’s lunch time so let’s go grab

Lunch am I so criminal you guys am I so bad arrest me then as Terminator once said I’ll be back and here I am back in Italy actually I haven’t been back to Italy since January so I’m actually really proud of myself I’ve been going to like a lot of different restaurants

I’m just like coming here every single day but I was really craving this CA at least today I didn’t get a pasta a lot of you guys actually yell at me for coming to Italy and buying pasta a lot of you have something against just like buying pasta at a restaurant because

Apparently can just cook it so easy at home but is it SP I don’t think so did I even take a victory of my [ __ ] food did I even eat this if I didn’t post this on social media so yummy also I deserve a nice little drink it is 5:00 p.m. somewhere

In the world but yes you guys thank you so much for watching I had so much fun hanging out with you guys and I hope you guys have been having a lot of fun hanging out with me too I just love doing these Vlogs so much just being

Alone and just hanging out with myself and with you guys thank you so much for watching leave a comment let’s talk in the comments I feel like I shared so much wisdom this video here’s a little kiss on the lips just kidding oh my God anyway thank you for watching I’ll see

You guys again on my next video next week bye

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  1. seeing the title and then the rest of the video as someone whos also been rotting and doing bad daily and….leaving for my study abroad in japan next week. 😭 may nicer weather get us out of this rut i cant take it anymore omggg! especially with the stress and (soon) homesickness on top

  2. I never really had an issue with spending time in the city by myself, I've recently also found myself needing other people's company to feel happy, but after watching this video, you've made me realize again why it's so nice to be able to spend time by yourself. You always know how to spread positivity to your viewers, which is why I'm always back at your channel every Wednesday!! You're the best Youtuber!!

  3. STAN i impulsively bought a ticket to Tokyo partly because of you… I'm going next month (alone) im so excited!!!!!!!

  4. My best friend told me she's more productive when I Facetime her which is surprising and nice to hear! I might need to try it more when I have homework, but I need that friend to be okay sitting in silence with me from time to time. I'm also okay with not constantly talking every second otp and enjoying their company. Who else can relate??

  5. "STOP rotting in your bed" literally got me. I've been having a lot of trouble with being sick these past few weeks. 🥲 I am so glad I got to see you again last week Stan! ❤

  6. I started talking to people to . I found a group of friends after a long lonely life . its been three years since I had a friend group but you encouraged me to get out and be a little bit more confident. I stepped out of my comfort zone getting into more social events helped me alot.

  7. im trying to lessen my consumption of insta reels and twitter and im glad that youve uploaded such a relatable video like this para talagang nagfafacetime lang tau .thank u so much stan

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